How are you ?

The other day

After an eternity, or was it a June and a may?

Like a long lost drop of stale dew

Came her message, out of the blue

The words were simple and O-so-few

… How are you?

 

Staring at the words do dark and clear

The music of raindrops I could hear

From the days when me and her were there

Which today I don’t know was exactly where

When she were what I saw everywhere

Confessions she had of her own share

Yet when I said it guess it wasn’t fair

For

She hadn’t looked at me that way

And her heart rested somewhere far away

Then what for those glimpses and times at day

When I was the one come what problem may

And with me in bright sun or clouds grey

Then things she said would never say

I could never forget, are here to stay.

 

Of selfishness, and calculating

Misinterpretation and self pleading

Of childishness and inappropriating

She seemed to know me pretty well

Hiding it all in the heart of a shell

But why would she ask if already knew

Oh so very well, How are you ?

Utopia…

In the rarity of peace

In the silence of loneliness

There lies a noise

There lies a chaos

Of the could haves

Of the what ifs

From futile imaginations

Of juvenile considerations

Spiraling into misty realms

Comparisons of reality and dreams

That sinking feeling,  And realizations

Of  How could I , and trivializations

That craving desire, and infatuation

To turn the needles back

To undo what is done

And escape the dark despair of restlessness

But Alas! And so says the righteousness

There never is a time there never is a land

Where all things right and virtues stand

That past is a ghost and future is a phobia

And there is a reason its called utopia…!

I Want…

I just want to be Right

That’s my only desire

Is it too utopian a sight?

Or are we the puppets of Satan?

 

I only want to be Just

Sans the ridicule of being gullible

Sad, the fetters of crime and lust

Or are we the captives of devil?

 

I want not to be Rude

Amidst the flares of angst

And emotions so crude

Or are we the paragons of anger?

 

I want to be Fearless

With other lives threaded to mine

Is it leisurely to have a spine?

Or are we the fabricators of excuses?

 

I want to be just Me

Alas! The imperfections the infirmity

The masks of vanity

The cause of keeping the threads entire

The hoards of multiple and fake attire

How can I be just me

And tread the path of ol’ good morality

When my world and its threads

Pull me to the bound infinity

Where rule greed and deception spree

Tell me, how can I forget my frailty

And just be Me..

 

Before I Met You…

Before I met you..

I never believed ..never understood..

How two different people with different mood..

Could be with each other forever…

What was love…

I could not decipher .

What is being near..yet craving..

How feelings are not always true to saying..

That love is actually mostly pain..

Gives severe losses for each gain.

 

Before I met you..

I did not believe that true love existed

For a while ,though my heart persisted..

I refused to believe , chose to detest ..

But after a hundred nights of unrest ..

And a thousand days of restlessness

It did occur to me..

Could it be the feeling..which is the sacredness?

 

Before I met you…

I had never felt such a pain..

Yet I want to talk to you..and see you again…and again..

I’d never know how did it sprout..

But you are all and everything I can think about..

If it wasn’t for you ..I’d never have known..

The wait..the desire..the yearning,the extent to which they’ve grown

 

Before I met you..

I had never believed ..there could be someone..

Who could be my everyone..

Never realized when this feeling grew..

But today..i’m compelled to say..

You’re the only one..and I love you…

All I have is Hope…

All I Have Is Hope…

Sans a pinch of salt

Neither I blame nor resent you

You’re not the one at fault

You’re the one

The source of my strength, The master of my wisdom

Albeit little it might be

Yet again its thee

The hurdle of my flights

The misfit, imperfect of a guide

Or else why?

Once while on my way

My feet waver and thoughts stray

Ample though I may resist

The temptations never cease to exist

The wants, desires still persist

A pure heart, a noble soul

Aren’t the most of what success consists?

Yet I trust you

You’re the one who gave me life

You’re the one who makes me strive

You’re the cause why I survive

The deeper I fathom, I realize

 

You are Almighty, you’re just

Right will be the end, if it must

Says the belief which holds my crust

Amidst the troubles, to life I cope

Because

All I Have Is Hope…..

 

 

 

Love Will Find a Way…

Have I found you.. Or is it an illusion ?

Ah..the hazy maze of love…

Still they say…

Love Will Find a Way..

Have I loved you..Or is it a fascination ?

The turmoils of this heart..

Tell me..what does it say…

Still I  wish..

Love Will Find a Way..

Have I known you..Or is it a hallucination ?

Can’t feel my mind..I can’t see your thoughts..

Love is blind , they say…

Still I hope…

Love Will Find a Way..

Have I lost you..Or is it a delusion..

Where are you…I plea..

My heart can feel..but eyes don’t see..

Sometimes joy…mostly dismay..

Still I know…

Love Will Find a Way…

Found..loved..lost..known..

Why couldn’t it have been simple ?

Like just you; and just me; and us ..alone

But alas..its less affirms and more nay..

Still..I pray..

Love Will Find a Way…!!!